A letter by a girl who feared love

Dear you,

I never wanted to fall in love.

Sounds stupid? But, I could never imagine of falling in love. Love to me, was pollution!
Compliments were a daily routine that never touched my heart, 'cos I was a girl who could never be fooled by those (stupid) cheesy lines!
Love to me was a lie, so illogical, so untrue!
And then, you entered into my life !
You loved me and you expressed it. I couldn't believe it (as usual). Rather say, I didn't want to believe it!
But, I liked you back. I didn't want to!
You changed me. I didn't want to! You loved me too much. I didn't want to be!
I hate you for coming into my life and changing me.
But, now I love you so much that I don't want to leave you.
That 'single' life was so happy.
Though, I am no worse mingling with you.
 But, you are such a distraction to me. A beautiful distraction who could ruin my dreams.
But, maybe this is just for a while. Maybe, this is just a usual attraction, the hormonal stuff.
And, I just hope it doesn't last long.
Maybe, we could stay together forever but Iam afraid of the possibility that it doesn't happen !
I fear if my distraction takes me apart from my dreams of becoming a better girl.
Because  fear if you find a better girl somewhere else and leave me.
I fear your love reduces due to my stupidity.
I fear losingyou.
I fear not deserving you.
I fear all these complications. And, now I understand, why I feared love!

'(Maybe someday) Yours'