A boy's diary

Dear diary,

Sleepless night yet again. But this time, it's drastically different.

There was a time when nights went by sleepless because I craved to sleep beside her. But this sleepless night is killing me and I no more wish the same. 

Recalling the incident she spoke to me about the last night leads me to a point where I picturize that gross scene. How could she ? How could she kiss another guy?

Was that something she craved for?                                                    

Was I wrong in understanding her ?

Was I wrong at judging her character?

Did I make a mistake of knowing her?

Was I wrong about trusting her?

I hate those lips that touched mine. 

I hate that face, that cheated me.

Is this what I deserved for loving her?

I hate my heart that loved her.

I hate my mind that thought about her.

I hate the words that were written for her.

I hate all the gentleness that forgave her mistakes.

Oh! wait, was this what she meant while she said "You deserve better"?

I realize, I definitely do!